Sharing the Joy

Ive not mentioned this yet, but last week, 2 of my students that i have been doing EBS(evangelistic bible study) came to accept christ. Thank God really. I was very glad too. This is the reason i'm doing what i am doing now. And i thank God that i'm able to experience this. Just pray that they'll be able to start going to church, and i could experience guiding a non believer to a true believer. =D =D

Luke 15:4- What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost, until he find it?

Luke 15:5- And when he hath found it, he layeth it on his shoulders, rejoicing.

Luke 15:6- And when he cometh home, he calleth together his friends and neighbours, saying unto them, Rejoice with me; for I have found my sheep which was lost.

Luke 15:7- I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, more than over ninety and nine just persons, which need no repentance.


I guess things do not change so easily, not in dreams at least. But well, in real life, it has. Mission trip mission trip~~. =)

Kinda lazy to blog these days. Just a short one.

Finally, it is over within me. The battle has ended. The name was deleted from the memory. No longer chained to it. Its definitely relief. No happiness, no sadness. For now, its relief. Lets hope i really am relieved.

1 down. 1 more to go. The last bad habit from my old self is the toughest. Been like that for some 5 years le. Lets just pray that i kick this last sinful habit.

Going to mission trip this thurs to sat. Missing YF again.

I am so tempted to forget my focus for visiting churches. Yet it is so easy to feel distant from my own church. Just pray that i'll truly learn and be able to bring back things i've learned from churches.

Extending my stay in yfc for 3-4 weeks. Yay. Im so happy. =)

But no 1's coming for my "graduation". =(

Yet another week " here"

This week was kinda cool. As usual was busy. Went to queensway on wed and bought my new shoes. Then there's thurs night. Mon played some table tennis and badminton even with my toe nail coming off. :-p Anyway, i thank God for keeping me fired up for doing this ministry that i truly enjoy. Everyday is looking forward to yet another bright new day. I guess thats why weekends feel horrendous, as August said, my expectations changed and yes i should not expect things the way i want it to. YF was rather stumbling. Sun worship service was my fault for not being able to catch anything during message. Well, for 1, i might not be going down to church for at least 3 weeks i guess.

Im glad that im seeing rather major improvements in singing! Thank God for August! And pray and hope that i'll continue improving so that i'll be able to use it well for leading worship in the future! =) I guess i thank God that i see that im picking up alot from practices and lessons, whether it be singing and bible studies alike! Thank God! =)

New best fren in Sam! New chatterbox rival in rachel! New Sis in Laura(of course not my real sis, but shares the same name)! Thank God for Bro & Sis in christ!

Tmr is east outing! Tues is talk time! Wed is TBC! Thurs is running and bball! Fri is singing and more singing! Sat is prob Zion and meeting with jeremy! Sun is TBC! Yet another great week to look forward to. :-p

Certain thoughts just kills me. I wish God will relieve me from these sufferings.

Please. Whenever it comes to mind i just cant fight it. Why go through this trial? What have i to learn from it? How to deal with it?

Only these things are hindering me from a perfectly positive mind these days.

Give me a kick- I simply cant move forward.

today i was reminded, i feel down so easily just by the thought of this issue. Just like that. And its tsunami.

I could simply just put down everything im doing, just to see, to get a glimpse.

Which did not happen.

On another note, i had simply the best vday/friendship day last night to date!(haha see the pun? Haha) I shall not say what did i do but it was a great time. Really. Shall not spoil the Vday secret. :-p (im talking nonsense again)

And...

Tks to august for bringing me back to perspective with regards to my concerns. =D

Hopefully abby doesnt scold me for quoting her. Haha.

"well, lets just wait. (:
the cool part is in the waiting-
waiting for God to speak
waiting for God's hand to direct
waiting for God to provide
lets see God move."

I remember what someone said. No you should not be waiting, for waiting means you wait in anticipation that something will happen. But sorry. I cant do it.

Seriously, i think im waiting. oh but ive reconciled both ideas. Im waiting, but for the thing abby is refering to, not the thing my friend was refering to.

You know what they are?

Dates this "Vday" week

Oh sian. I missed the Deadline!!! Its today!!! I'm 1 day late. Nvm. Its God's will i guess. Yea. What i wanted to do? Sorry its a Vday secret. :-p Why do i say so? Dont know it just sounds like a term that fits. Haha. :-p

I guess Vday got to me. Like i should be doing something that day or something. Haha. I guess bad influence and unedifying talk with Kenn and Mark got into me. Dumb Kenn. Luckily for me, he doesn't read this. :-p Of course im joking only.

Anyway i just realized. I am booked the whole week this week. Haha. If you want to date me unless its like tmr srry im fully booked. :-p
Vday(thurs): date with my running shoes and Kaki's ( friends of similar interest to do the same thing, also means legs in malay. Get the pun? :-p)
Tmr: Date with Hairdresser. Hopefully theres something else. :-p
Wed: Date with Kenn. Of course im jokin who wants to date kenn. We're going queensway to buy shoes.
Fri: Date to watch movie. :-p (sorry i think its all guys hahaha) Oh no i forgot its a date with my vocals and taugays!!! Ok gotta sort that out.
Sat: Date which is about uniforms and yf. Ok i confess its bro & sis appreciation week for yf.

Seriously ppl really can waste life/time in facebook. Sorry im joining for fun nia.

Oh im meeting Jeremy my dear junior/gd friend next sat!!! Even though we had a short close friendship when he was 1st 3 months in mj & choir, at least we're meeting up again!!! Im happy to catch up and know how is he doing in vj. =)

All in another blink of an eye, this CNY

Well. This week went past awfully fast again. 6 weeks of project serve passed just like that. Haha. This week was rather fun. Wed had no "work" We just spent the morning playing bball before having a steamboat with our ministry ppl and the west Min ppl. A bad thing that occured is, most of my toe nail broke loose, cause there was internal bleeding from bball then i took off my shoes and continued to play. Smart move cause someone just stepped on my toe and there goes my nail. And to add salt to the wound, i was going for hol the next day. -.- So i was kinda sad later realizing that im going for holiday, to a beach, not being able to touch water. -.-

Holiday was great. Family time was the thing i really enjoyed during this time. Sleep too, and the 24/7 strong wind. :-p Well like i told my family, i think its the 1st time i went for holiday with my mum and 2 sisters. But i guess i really enjoyed it, from playing monkey and soccer with a beach volleyball( of course i was rooted to the ground most of the time and playing soccer with my other foot). Well, playing soccer with 3 females is alright cause im handicapped too. Haha. All the laughter and fun was really enjoyable. I'll post alot of nice photos later.

Thus, i never did much visiting this holiday,only on thurs morning, and later. Oh but had visiting yesterday with my colleagues and YFC volunteers to their house. Cool and fun filled day it was.

Talked to kevin for like another few hours last night. We just didnt talk for a few weeks and it seemed like ages cause we had so much to tell each other. Him being in army, and me and project serve, and both our personal probs and struggles. Haha. Mine had abit more cause i still meet ppl thus have quite a few more relational probs. Haha. So cool.

2 random thoughts: 1 is that i guess someone said something that triggered a thought in me yesterday. Haha. Well, 1 is that, how surprising during the hol's that just passed i actually spent more than 7 days a row, seeing and going out with this fren. Funny how we aren't even on talking term these days. Quite sad a good friendship turned out this way. I should be trying harder to salvage this relationship i guess.

another was when elder lee met me in the lift and he said, "you going for a meeting ah?" Then i said no. Then i thought to myself, please, i have not had a meeting in church for years. Well, i guess i kept feeling this way recently cause i feel that i have the time, energy to offer and im not needed. Anyway, its not like im not busy lah, its just that its the best time i can offer.

Funny how a relationship is really something odd. I always thought i just cant click with this "fren". Well, his tendencies sometimes initially got to my nerves. But when i ironed things out with this "fren", learning why he does certain things in a certain way. Suddenly i dont feel that awkwardness, and seemlessly find that his quite an approachable person too. I guess its such a perception thing. If i think he has something against me, i will always feel that person is not very approachable, personality clash etc. Ends up, its just a stone in the heart. Once removed, i start to see the better side of him.

Of course i do not have alot of relationship problems nor does it bother me very often. Its just that i like to blabber it out here. Maybe SLIGHTLY more than others, but yea. My blog is problem venting corner. Haha.

Suddenly, i became really good friends with Sam. Haha. So cool. I guess cause he tells me alot which makes me quite happy. Haha. Then we spend time every day having a time of prayer together, praying about different topics and subjects.

Like i was telling kevin, something i really need help in, other than discipline to do QT, is to make a bigger effort to spend time with students, and not spend most of my time with friends. Its God's work vs my own needs, or rather wants.

Feels like i touch and go alot in this post. But blogging is really time consuming. Ciao!

Calling and taking up His cross

Have you heard God giving you a calling?

I did.

I got my calling last Friday. I guess its up to you to interpret whether its a calling. To me, im certain. After hearing the call, i was filled with unmeasurable and immense joy, that i was so close to tears- something i've never felt before. I really cant describe it. But of course, its my response that matters. And how i wanna ensure i respond is one thing. But i would love to thank God for this calling by the Lord. I thank God that God spoke to me, through a few things last week to change. To change so much i never would knew, thought, want. And then comes His call to me. Its not full time, its just something that He wants me to do.

Praise the Lord!!!

You have received yours. I guess i thank God that i was there to witness it. I see it as God's calling for you. Whether you interprete it as a calling from God, and your response, is up to you. To me its God's putting you a challenge right there to take up your cross and follow Him. Its your answer- to Him.

I dont want to make the same mistake as Jonah did. I did months worth of bible study on this book thrice. I did it for my 1st bible study when i started going church abit in pri 5. Im going to do it again.

I will

Take up my cross.

CONSIDER CHRIST

1. Consider Christ
The source of our salvation.
That he should take the penalty for me.
Though he was pure,
A lamb without a blemish;
He took my sins and nailed them to the tree.

Chorus
My Lord and God
You are so rich in mercy
Mere words alone are not sufficient thanks.
So take my life,
Transform, renew and change me
That I might be a living sacrifice.

2. Consider Christ
That he should trust His father
In the garden of Gethsemane
Though full of dread
And fearful of the anguish;
He drank the cup that was reserved for me.

Chorus

3. Consider Christ
For death He has defeated
And He arose, appeared for all to see.
And now He sits
At God's right hand in heaven;
Where He prepares a resting place for me.

Chorus

Am like in an extremely irritable mood now. And i wanted to blog. No mood le lah. Came home at 10 expecting dinner then had miscommunication- there isnt dinner at home. And i was at geylang with lots of good food but gotta look at my friend eat and i eat desert. Then my oh-so-smart sister had to like lock herself in my room when i was smsing my friend! Plus all my stuff inside and alarm too and i have to like wake up earlier than her some more. Soo super irritating. And here on one end i thought i had little problems with anger management. Whatever nick.

Went to Sara PARN's (haha) church yesterday. Her church brings back memories of my old church which is even smaller with 30 ppl. Her's is also probably less than even a 100. Plus her church is so much more like a kindergarten than our's is. So cool. Haha. Im kinda surprised a presbyterian church is so much like ours. And they happen to sing lotsa hymns then, but with drums. Haha. Quite interesting.

BTW. Im visiting not because im finding a church. Im just intending to get to go to churches than are non charismatic nor speaks in tongues but uses drums for their worship. (Sara's one is "so called" drums. Haha.)

Oh im kinda surprised the NIV bible has the word stupid. Lol.

I guess sometimes being intelligent hinders us from relying on God's strength but on our own rational and experience. I sometimes see that things like being in JC really hindered me from spending time with God and committing my ways to Him.

I guess ppl use rational strength instead of an irrational faith.

Oh btw. Wanna say this for some time. Kinda encouraged by sara pano and abigo and jeto's blog. Really nice to see them blog about self reflections on how they need to change and things they learned, quoting verses and all. So cool. Reading their blog is so enriching and such an encouragement! =)

Sorry i just wanted to blabber abt non-sensical stuff. Will blog abt what im doing soon. Oh im going holiday this thurs. Woots!!! =D