Fantasies

Fantasies seem like reality, until you had a reality check. Sad, and there goes another fantasy. I realize i live in fantasy alot. When can i get out of my fantasies? I realize i always imagine things too much. WAY to much.

Stop dreaming,

Say Hi to the New Me

The New Me

Say Hi to the new me. Somethings i noticed that have changed.

Much less cheerful than before.
Play bball much more than before.
sleep much more than before(when i get the chance)
SKip church much more than before
Woke up to the realisation how much im not interested in God
Just living my life the way i want to
not seeking him as much as before
not studying His word as much as before
I now count how often God is in my mind a day, virtually none, other than saying grace.
Convictions that ive all given up, was countless.

Wow. I guess its like my fren said, you grow up, and learn that convictions are, somewhat naive thoughts. There's so much in me that just is wrong-so much turmoil, ill discipline, deterioration of r/s with superiors, i keep going to sleep thinkingm what is changing, what is diff. And i found so many.

2 big changes coming up. Btaces on the 13th, eyelid surgery on the 24th. Wow. Talk abt changes.

And i can finally swim!!! Yes!!!!

Maybe i should be off to qt for once.