Things are just not the same

Wonder why i always say that things aint and might not be the same. Its just simply the core group of ppl are just not around anymore. The ppl i grew to love and hand out with are just not around anymore. Thinking of it, I feel despondent. I dont have anything to look forward to anymore, except for this time to end, rather than the things that await. Counting the numbers who have left- 1,2,3,4,5,6,7 and counting. Those who are always too busy to be around anymore- 1,2,3,4 and counting. For a group that aint so big, this means that from the old group, 1,2,3,4,5 are the only ones always left around.

No offence to the will be new ones, but i doubt they will be the same as the old ones, simply because they place other things more important than what we do. Im not saying what they do is wrong; im not saying that they must put their core group of relationship with us, but im saying, i doubt they ever will rather spend time with us than their other friends. They will never want to spend time with the group of us like the old group used to. I believe that, hoping that the future new ones will be like the group that has moved on, is wishful thinking. And the group of us, has long disbanded, whether you admit it or not. Maybe i am the one who's not willing to move on, because i grew to long to hang out with this group alot. I wish to replicate the situations as it was 2-4 years ago, but it will never happen.

If you ask me, i would say every other relationship now is on the surface. Its just a seasonal relationship, only when its that time of the year, then we are close. The rest of the time, its not the same. Why is it like that?

I guess rather than complaining and holding onto things that no longer exist, i guess i should move on. I should look forward to the possible new group to hang out with. Elsewhere or not, im not sure either. Wait for things to unfold by itself, and then decide, whether i want to walk away, into greener pastures.

Maybe its not greener though.

Can you guess who im talking about?

Maybe some of you might have heard, that all my relationships with friends everywhere just aint good. Thus, i guess im saying all this in light of it.

Solace comes form bro kevin. Hopefully it lasts bro. Cause every other similar ones never lasted. Dating back to primary sch till now, 1,2,3,4,5,6 dont seem to last when we moved on to another stage in life. All the great times i have spent with them, have all come to nought. Its as if, we were never great friends. Its as if, we move on without bringing the past along.

Its as if, we were never great friends.

And i admit, i didnt try to keep them, when im faced with fresh faces, challenges and busy times.

Hah, my habit of saying depressing things here.