Friday, December 16, 2011

The end of another chapter: The Smile at the traffic Junction

I think theres no more hope to clinging to this. But i just want to remember that smile, at that traffic junction. Well there is no picture(s) that can replicate that image in my mind. And I only can say that, I probably had the chance, but i let it slip. When i wanted to build this relationship again, it is stuck. Now that you seem to have moved on, i probably should too.

Will again, always remember that image.

Sunday, July 24, 2011


Aftter an emotional roller coaster day, This somehow describes it. I'm staring out of my window, searching for you .

Where'd you go? I miss you so.

So where do you want to go? What do you want to do? Is this the end that you want? Do you want to tell me that we're walking in opposite directions? 

Sometimes when you dont desire it, it comes to u.
But when you desire it, it just never comes.

Maybe I should close this chapter nicely for once.

[7] "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. [8] For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened. [9] Or which one of you, if his son asks him for bread, will give him a stone? [10] Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a serpent? [11] If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him! [12] "So whatever you wish that others would do to you, do also to them, for this is the Law and the Prophets. [13] "Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. [14] For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few. - Mat 7:7-14 ESV

And this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will he hears us. - 1Jo 5:14 ESV
And if we know that he hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of him. - 1Jo 5:15 ESV

[11] For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. [12] Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. [13] You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. - Jer 29:11-13 ESV

[3] Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known. - Jer 33:3 ESV

[23] Truly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be taken up and thrown into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says will come to pass, it will be done for him. [24] Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. - Mar 11:23-24 ESV

Mat 21:22And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith."
Psa 10:17O LORD, you hear the desire of the afflicted; you will strengthen their heart; you will incline your ear
Mat 6:33But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.


Sometimes what you want is not what God wants. 
Sometimes what you want is not what others want.
Sometimes ppl tell you what they think God wants. 
Sometimes you become unsure of what God wants.
So who can be surer of what God wants for you?
Others, ppl, or yourself?
Or is it because you want to think God wants this for you?

Monday, July 18, 2011

Chasing after your shadow

I wish you were able to explain things. Its been a month already. More actually. I feel like I'm chasing after your shadow. And there isn't anything much I can do if you're avoiding like that.

Can you at least give me an answer?

I guess i can do nothing but pray. 

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Honestly, I am sad, but what can I do? But to learn, to lean, to walk and to still love Him more and more through each experience, that He becomes the foremost love. Maybe, just grief for 1 night.

Pain, in the heart. But its gd, early is gd. The heart is a deceitful creature.
[5] Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. [6] In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. - Pro 3:5-6 ESV

Friday, May 06, 2011


Sometimes i question God, why am i so relational? Why do i love, yet was never loved? When will she come by? It's such a hard struggle. 

As someone just left today, i was a little heart stricken by some of her actions. It felt like i should know the answer. Well, thinking about it, I shouldn't expect her to be like my mum, to accept someone younger. I really admire my dad's courage actually. How did he even muster the courage to like, court, and marry someone older. Its mind boggling to me to say the least. But the glad thing i'm learning from this, i'm starting to learn to like someone, more and more for Godly reasons, which is great. But truthfully, i know its too soon. I barely know her. I just want to be friends for a long time to come. I guess friends is good enough and i don't want to spoil a friendship. I guess i need to make back the 1 year pact, of knowing someone for a year first.

But my emotions are very strong and very deceiving creatures. I was just so emotional just now thinking of some the things that happened that i felt so emotional. Plus the bad things that happened earlier, made things worse. I felt like telling her, but didn't have the opportunity.

Love love, i'm always bothered about love. The other thought that came to my mind was, when will i stop being bothered about the cares of this life?

[34] "But watch yourselves lest your hearts be weighed down with dissipation and drunkenness and cares of this life, and that day come upon you suddenly like a trap. - Luk 21:34 ESV

Sian. Oh when will i learn to love God more....

Monday, April 11, 2011

Grateful for your existence

Whether this develops or not, im grateful for your existence, im my life. :)

Giving Up, Not!

Sometimes, you just want to tell yourself, give up. Give up. Why persist? Its all clear. Sometimes life problems just makes u want to give up, maybe, just be a bum. Stop studying maybe. Stop trying so hard to obey Christ. It brings alot of suffering and pain right? But i'm thankful, for God's word and His messenger to speak to me ytdy!

Discouragement is a sneaky enemy because it leads to a slow bleed, a gradual erosion. As the battles become difficult and the results delayed, discouragement settles in, layer upon layer, until we’re ready to give up.
“be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go” (Joshua 1:9).
We have the choice to become covered with disbelief or faith. Joshua trusted God’s promises so much that he voiced them to others (Joshua 1:6,9,10:25) and, consequently, led an entire nation into God’s freedom. It begs the question: What are our lives reflecting to others—discouragement or deep trust in God?
—Regina Franklin

And the reflection question goes, "How can you learn to trust God more and not give up?" Yea. Do my life reflect discouragement or a deep trust in God? Persevere, my dear friend! Never give up! Yea! And maybe u'll get a layout score! :)

Encouraging Verses!!!

Rejoice always! - 1 Thess 5:16

In Chirst all will come to life again. - 1 Cor 15:22

Blessed are those who hear the word of the Lord and keep it. - Luke 11:28

And he said: Go into the world and preacht he word to every creature! - Mark 16:15

To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven. - Ecclesiastes 28:20

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding - Pro 3:5

Stand still and consider the wondrous works of God - 1 Kings 3:5

Show me your ways, oh Lord. Teach me your paths. - Psalms 25:4

With God all things are possible - Matt 19:26

[35] Jesus said to them, "I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst. - Jhn 6:35 ESV

[8] I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you. - Psa 32:8 ESV

[1] To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul; [2] in you I trust, O my God.. - Psa 25:1-2 NIV

[12] Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. [13] You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. - Jer 29:12-13 NIV

[28] "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. [29] Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. [30] For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." - Mat 11:28-30 NIV

[33] But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. [34] Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. - Mat 6:33-34 NIV

[4] Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth, burst into jubilant song with music; - Psa 98:4 NIV

[8] Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double‑minded. [9] Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. [10] Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up. - Jam 4:8-10 NIV

Sunday, January 30, 2011

My God is an awesome God! And for what He has done, i am grateful! He answered my prayers again! Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! :D

Recently, i 've been wanting to post these pics. Its been a yearning to embrace God! :) 

How great is our God,
sing with me
How great is our God,
and all will see
How great
How great is our God

Friday, August 20, 2010

Maybe i should make it clear. I no longer like you. Its in the past. I only wanna be ur bro! which part of that do you not understand.

Ok maybe i should listen to advice and chill.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

I think i still miss talking to you.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Love, as a Brother

You know. Sometimes i think to myself, why am i always just so concerned. It feels stupid, it feels like you will never reap any benefits, will never gain anything, but im always still concerned. I guess thats called a brother.

I was right. I guessed right. Though i may not know you very well now, slowly, bit by bit, im beginning to understand what concerns you, what is important to you, and what troubles you. 

Just glad though that you didnt disappoint. Still my sis. :) Though its not hinged on that, but im still glad.

Though your methods i disapprove. It is a bad testimony to the non christians who see the status. It is a bad testimony if they know the truth. We should live above reproach. We should be blameless before others and God. If you have nothing to hide, then you have nothing to fear. They can say all they want, but why fear when you have nothing to fear, and have to resort to lies again? What happened to what was said in the 10 commandments, that "You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor" in exodus 20:16? But its your choice. Its your life. Everyone makes wrong choices. Everyone sins. But the important thing is, realise it, turn to God, repent, and seek him again, and His name shall be Glorified through you. Again, i say this, out of concern, out of brotherly love. I just wanna help.

Though so often i dont know how to bring it across. Though so often its awkward. Though so often i want to help, but i cannot do much or even anything anymore. Though i have failed as a bro. Though we might never talk again. Though you might never read this. There is no love lost. And through all the saga, through all the crushes and the emotions. It is put in place. You are my sis. That is all. That is how it will be. And i will always support you, from the stands.

And this is my prayer. That i shall forgive. I shall be patient. I shall be slow to anger. And I shall watch my words.

Your Brother

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Prayer For a Friend

Prayer For A Friend
Casting Crowns

I lift my friend, to You.
Complicated circumstances
have clouded his view.
Lord I lift my friend up to You.

I fear that I won't have the words
that he needs to hear.
I pray for Your wisdom , oh God.
And a heart that's sincere.
And Lord I lift my friend up
to You.

Lord I lift my friend to You.
My best friend in the
world, I know he means much
more to You.
I want so much to help him, but
this is something he has to do.
Lord I lift my friend up to You.

There's a way that seems so right to him.
But You know where that leads.
He's becoming a puppet of the world.
Too blind to see the strings.
And Lord I lift my friend up to You.

Lord I lift my friend to You.
I've done all that I know to do.
I lift my friend, to You.