i juz shldnt be describing what i think rite now... its actually something to do with self-deflating thoughts... oh well...

ive changed alot... dun u tink so... and its ever since i had a blog.. :-p somethings for e better.. many others for e worse actually...

i realized ive been stoning alot.. sometimes not even thinking of anything.. juz stone... maybe cos i dun rock??? :-p

i cant help but think ive wasted my time investing on ppl' lives.. esp 1.. and they dun even appreciate it..

they dun care anymore...

i cant help but think tis way... den at times i think of another.. make up ur mind can u.. den again.. its not up to me...

i tink i am actually beginning to be more and more like joash in someways..

my wishful thinking again i guess...

actaully it dates back to e start f last year.. den had an off period for like 5 months... which started all e mess within my head... den it came back after i removed tt..

wah.. im very tired... piles and piles of hw somemore.. Nicholas here needs lots and lots AND LOTS of strength.. if u can share some ill be glad thank u...