todae.. yest.. Seans birthday... and yf camp..

i so wanna change blogskin getting bored of white le... :-p another wasted day again.. and today dun feel like christmas eve's eve lol... :-p

k.. so im finally able to get down to blogging.. crap i juz hav too much to say until i dun tink i can remember all... haha.. ok.. now im gonna start with e most recent things 1st.. den work backwords..

wah lao.. wah lao.. im surprised tt someone(which is best i dun reveal who) is in some inter jc beauty pageant lah.. i was like WHAT!!!! are u serious... i mean nt tt shes nt pretty or something.. its juz tt.. wah lao.. i wonder what wld her parents reaction be... i mean.. do they even noe????!!! im quite sure they might flip lor noeing em(sorta).. i mean... why wld she wanna join tis kinda thing in e 1st place.. lolz... but i tink she stands a gd chance of winning it though.. :-p

ok.. now for last nite(sorta).. it was a great nite of singing.. hmm.. although i wun say e choir ish very gd... but its nt abt e standards bah... hmm... ok brief runthru of e day.. in e afternoon go cerebral palsy centre to perform.. den later go jason's place... woah.. at 1st abit shocked to see e ppl at e centre cos i wasnt realli mentally prepared so to speak..... but den.. it was great.. i wld say they are one e best audiences i had... e sharing later at jason's place kinda made me tink of alot of things... hearing alot of ppl share they're learning pointers were realli like challenging and awakening.. haha... until i wanted to find some time to consolidate my thoughts.. kinda felt emo also cos my tired.. haha... oh well... e greatest thing frm e centre was hearing Richard(whos 1 of e patients at e centre) share his testimony... seriously encouraging.. yet challenging lor.. i mean when he was talking he was so emotional tt he was like tearing lor.. den u noe.. i feel quite dum.. cos at 1st i felt quite touched and emotional too... but den i didnt realli realized it and was like whats tis feeling... lol... den later realized my sis and someone else(better not tell everyone who she is.. nt gd bah...) who was listening at a corner.. was tearing too.. lol... i thought she was so listening so attentively too lor... den she tear i was like ultra shock.. second time i see her tear in weeks... whn i hav never seen it before... anyway.. my sis also lah.. so emotional.. lol...

crap my draft got deleted my firefox not responded den i restarted it!!! grr.. i typed a lot one leh.. ok dun care juz type impt point 1st.. so late le.. ok..

e mime was great... cheryl is very gd.. :-p

i still hav some introversion in me.. thurs i was seeing ppl happily taling away den i juz wanted to shun away... i feel stronger when ppl are down.. at yf camp i was very stressed and ppl gave me black face den i was on e verge of breaking down during yf camp.. but when ppl did so before me.. i felt stregthen to not do so...

i wonder when e situation will end at hm.. since thurs ive been trying.. but den i hav sunk close to e dark side..

i hate tt feeling in me.. juz wanting to be arnd... maybe what my sis said is true... and i feel so cos of tt.. but.. i wish it wasnt... but God will lead.. im putting it all in His hands..

i wish what i feel is true...

grr.. i typed so much juz nw nw hav to resort to pointss.. grr.. *angry* *angry*

ok.. e rest nxt time...