Heh. I thought i was feeling better. It really just takes any 1 of those scars to occur, and i'll be aargh! And i have too many now.

Somehow, its just so painful! Suddenly when something like that occur again, you just feel your heart being torn apart again. Its then that i wish i have totally forgotten. Its very interesting, cause i dont understand why the heart will ACTUALLY feel pain. Hmm. Doesn't quite make sense biologically. Maybe emotionally and psychologically? Hmm.=

Ouch, it makes me immensely down at that sheer moment. After awhile its not so bad again.(Cause its like the next day, andi i got lotsof sleep. :)

Thing to be glad is, r/s with God is improving. Its the thing that really matters. Feel happy and joyful and thankful in much more things again,