A Failed testimony at work

It sucks man. Really bothered that i am having problems at work. Really didnt realize i neglected being a testimony at work and started to become rather self centred and all. It kinda sucks that work r/s are deteriorating quite badly except for 1 who shot up. Guess who? The secretary. I dont know why. I just always end up not mixing with the major cliques much and mixing with individuals again. We are so diff but somehow we just clique and im like always fine having lunch wit the one not having lunch with anyone else. Well maybe cause she's "better looking" *cough* *cough* but also cause im just being sociable? like i mix with everyone and am fine with everyone? K im still not as pro as someone. Mixing with the greet girls all the time leh! (hopefully she and he wont read it, though i know he would!)

Bothersome thoughts of a failed testimony. Am so bothered on how can i change the situation. Zz. Tmr is going to be a VERY VERY LONG DAY for me. Working till 11. Zz.

So interesting. Some thoughts are still lingering in me somehow. Or is it feelings? Its like logically yea you know it has ended le. But somehow certain feelings are still there and still havent really change? Amusing really. Erm hard to explain. Its like most of the bothersome thoughts and all have left me, but the feeling are kinda like still there? Haha. Emotional attachments. But dont care as long as it doesnt bother me.

Anyway its not about me right? Haha.