emotional void: Heartbreak

Its kinda a weird feeling. Of course you seem all right and all up front. But when you go back and let loose all masks, you understand what it means by heartbreak. A piercing feeling through your heart. So irritating, and painful- something not everyone will EVER GET TO FEEL. Its just like a black hole, sucking all emotions and feelings and logic inside. Leaving you feeling nothing but pain and an illogical mind.

Not that i havent given up, but its the final stab, to kill it all.

I thought i cried so badly, until i realized it was just a dream. Really, only in my dreams. In the dream, someone came and was like you why you didnt come to church? NExt thing i know, i was at church. The very next, i realized it was not you but someone else who picked me up. Weird. THen the next, being in home clothes, i was at a corner, with tears flowing like a stream. A group of the guys were like hey dont like that come and join us. They next were putting up a skit/show on the pulpit/stage, and i teleported to the door, ready to leave. Then i woke up, thinking, oh, i was only crying in my dreams?

But how painful.

I agree that it was solved the best way possible. It was done in a good way, and i cant think of anything better. But i guess you should go through heartbreak of my kind for you to understand what it feels like.

I guess we are all selfish creatures. Only concerned that we are facing certain problems, never concerned how others would be going through, just all but concerned on trying to solve our own problems. We dont empathize with others, but are just concerned with self. Thats what we all are- utterly self centred.

Hearing what others say of me, is kinda sad really, all i can say is.

Hypocrites! You all are hypocrites too. Thinking that you're seeking God when you reject certain obvious truths that you do not accept, and trying to meet your own agendas/ plans/motives with His. O Father, please reveal all us hipocrites, the thruth. The truth behind 2 seemingly simlar decisions. The truth behind everyone's heart.

For the truth sets us free!