I want to say something... but cant remember liao... ah... my inner affections...

sian... i always want to say something... but always cant remember... always like tt... wanted to say alot on blog also forget le... lets see what i remember...

dont noe why dun look forward to weekend for e 1st time.. or at least for a very long time... blea.. dun ask me why... i think its sch... and maybe even yf??? dun noe..

felt quite unhappy and sad after comm meeting... dun ask me why also... cos i dun think i noe why either...

quite sian also of soccer le on sunday eve... i think i really noe why i dun like joining sport cca le... haha... i always wanna play yet every time play finish sian... haha...

woah tis week i some gd boy everyday study 3 hrs except for wed... so gd rite... haha.. but i cant take it cos i always start at 10pm... lol... so tired...

oh... and i cant talk God enuf for Jian Xin... for giving me a brother in class... and hes e very like me kinda char... juz tt i grew up to not like showing love and concern... haha... amazed by how he sticks with me and sometime even lean on me(not gay but very close bro... really...)... tts why say amazed... but hes a real bro..

i always thought tt i always cant find a "best fren" kinda fren cos of how i am... i can make frens quite well... but never close frens.. tis is how i am bah... never once since i was young could someone call me "best fren"(actually means close fren lah)... but ya for e 1st time in sch i can find one... haha.. but e 1st has to be frm church... haha.. not 1 but a few... i think i can safely tt no one will ever be a very close of mine... although i always would want one... having a few close frens is what i shld be contented on bah... haha... i think its becos of how i dont show tt im genunely concerned for ppl... my char of loving play too much... being too "man" has hidden my inner affections for others... tt how i would really love to spend time toking with ppl den to play sometimes... haha... i actually really love to listen to others trouble... wondering how some ppl have been... den i would be so glad tt ppl share with me but they wont...(usually ppl tt will share are girls lah but im like a guy so...) den i end up being someone who like to share alot... but i really love to hear too... but anyhow...(tis whole para sound so err... girly now tt i realise it... !!! anyhow its juz a mindset of mind ^^)

haha.. finally i shared tis... and it feels so gd... =)