slack day? wasted day? fun day? everything jumbled up together..

hmm... juz came hm.. wanted to pen some thoughts...

sometimes i feel...
sometimes i think...
sometimes i feel i shldnt think..
sometimes i think i shldnt feel...

haha.. dun noe what i toking abt...

sometimes i feel/think.. ya.. it seems so...
im confused between thinking and feeling...

haha.. was thinking abt quite a few things juz now on e way hm... but well.. thoughts during fatigue is always nt gd...

so rather than tok abt feelings... lets tok abt e past week...

today... my pw grp members came my hse to do pw.. den al came... den all of us were late meeting e girls.. i told andrew lah... den he say why so scared and stuff and made a dum comment.. lol... after we met up.. went to queensway to look for shoe... wanted to buy a converse shoe and a bottle.. but well... couldnt find neither... queensway is nt a gd place to buy converse stuff... anyway now is nt a gd time to get a shoe yet... so... gd in a sense.. took a bus to parkway.. lolz.... on e bus... i took some photos of e ppl sleeping.. cos while i was sleeping initially on e bus... i thought.. i wanted to capture e innocent faces of some ppl sleeping... u noe... to remind myself of em.. nt smiling.. nt unhappy.. juz tt neutral sleeping face.. feels warm and wld bring a smile to my face juz by looking at tt expression... :-p onli managed to take a few... will collect these memories in e future.. den when reach parkway... end up playing pool... sian my pool sucks.. tried to use e things adrain thought me but i juz couldnt cos something is still wrong with my posture and stuff.. so end up playing so badly... so sian... only moment i played well was potting 3 balls in a row.. lol.. tts all.. ovrl feel very sian...

on e way hm.. al left his keys with jg.. den ran to jg juz before we borded our bus cos jg bus was reaching.. he managed to get his keys before jg left... den on e pathway in e middle of e field outside e mrt.. it was quite dark... but den.. e sky was so huge and clear.. nt tt there were any stars.. but juz e big huge sky and e moon made me feel gd... love tt sight.. juz wanted to lie there and look at e sky... den.. on my way hm.. was toking to al abit abt relationship(frens lah) issues... den made me think again since i came hm..

somethings juz cld nt be forgotten tt easily...

sometimes i dunno whether i noe what ppl are toking abt.. or its juz i anyhow assume concluded.. irritating lah i think i noe what ppl are toking abt... or sometimes afraid i guess wrongly.. haiz cannot think abt it..

orvl.. actually like i have blogged.. didnt do much.. but well.. actually.. its still fun spending time... e company and all.. :-p

actually wanted to blog abt what happen e past few days.. rather than juz feelings.. but den.. well maybe later..

when we see each other then... it feels so cold... dun feel like tokin... cos what u said left me cold and lost for words.. i think i realli was/am blind..

back..

abt tis week..

mon was pw den choir..

tues was e best day of e week... had prayer meeting in e morn at tricias hse.. which was great.. greatly needed it at tt time... watched millions.. cool movie... dun mind watching it again.. :-p den went out with class to bugis.. at 1st planned vivocity.. but too many pppl.. so went bugis instead... e girls wanted to eat.. so went pastamania... me al and jg was trying to be funny... haha... den went window shopping.. it was kinda like a girls haven.. but nvm i didnt realli find it a drag... kinda curious to shop arnd since ive nt been doing so for years.. den took neoprint.. my 1st... initially bought some supposedly keychain but den was a disaster.. dunno spent money on it for what.. and made me late for adrian's bday celebrations... but ovrl like i said.. chatting and crapping is nice.. :-p adrians bday was painful.. cos went to fish and co and eat.. created a hole in my pocket.. as well as my head.. too much msg den i gt immediate headache.. ouch.. haha.. den adrian was forced to stand on chair and wave a firework while e fish and co ppl all gathered and did a cheer.. den a birthday song.. ahha.. so funny.. den later was cartel but nt worth mentioning.. juz waste time..

saw junyuan.. wanted to see him for a long time.. he dissappeared frm church some time ago... hmm.. i dont dare ask him.. and.. he seems diff.. u noe.. in my mind.. junyuan is e nicest person i noe... realli quite perfect.. a great role model... i cld remember those times... when he helped me so much... but den.. it seems tt tt picture is smashed.. cos it seems like hes nt quite e one i knew anymore... sad... i feel... cos... it juz seems it isnt as i thought... sob sob..

wed was when i knew i was promoted.. yeah woohoo.. ogl interview was great.. i kinda enjoyed it actually... :-p choir was short tt day.. wasted time on com e whole nite..

thurs was op whole day... can cry sia... but i kinda enjoyed it... acc made xi wen mad.. luckily shes ok already... phew.. vonne ng was having a bad tummyache.. u noe.. i kinda was very worried for her cos she seems so painful.. but den still can laugh laugh laugh.. actually felt like i wld rather be e one whos painful cos she intially couldnt take it... and i prob got more endurance to pain(or isit maybe only.. hmm...)

today... its mentioned above... juz tt i dun noe what ive been doing since 8 when i came hm... gb like usual is sian... and i aint as gd as i was in e past... when i dc le den i stopped and came back here... low and iris pang seh me cant play o2 jam... nvm.. hope can play with al later...

u noe.. some ppl are starting to impress me.. haha... tt they are better than i thought and actually are quite sensitive too... =)

starting to get closer to jg and al... haha... managed to mix in with e 3 musketeers... feels great to be going out with frens tt u are close.. or at least getting closer with...

i wan cha tao pao... haha.. want to play o2 jam with him... :-p hes missing for a weekend.. :-(

tmr seems interesting... choir with other choirs.. den bbq.. woohoo.. 40 ppl comin.. but was quite sad e class ppl cant come... zz.. wonder whether tt bongee or wadever looks like hl... or have similar char.. ee.. i dun wan to noe another person whos... like tt... :-p

oh.. tis thought juz struck me.. i think tmr there will be a few ppl who might mei kai yan qiao.. and i hav a list of ppl(even girls too) who i wld expect to do so... something tells me... i better nt say who.. cos they'll whack me.. haha... :-p but ill noe tmr.. :-p

gonna try writing some chines thing e nxt time... oh and maybe some time soon i wanna write abt how i feel abt everyone in class.. my thoughts and all... hehe.. watch tis space... =)

oh.. !!! forgot to call rachel.. die die... and forgot abt qt again... ah.. i keep forgetting to have a real long chat with Him.. tis place.. IS WASTING TOO MUCH TIME!!! gotta limit my next week to 2 posts.. kk.. bb..