Im so used to saying what i feel, especially uncomfortable feelings, that im so used to letting it out in my blog that when i decided not to, it makes me more uncomfortable to restrain myself.

On another note, i am kinda sad i will always be in rui and adrian's shadows. Its something i always would love to do, but i never get the chance to. Haiz. Maybe i didnt grow around here, thus ppl don't ask me to. Its sad, at least to me, cause i would always love to do it, and is something i would always crave to do, but i guess i have not much experience in such small groups anyway. =( Well, i dont even get the chance! I wish to do it someday, someday soon. I guess i should cherish it once i could.

Sometimes saying "let Thine will be done" isnt so easy. Sometimes when things dont go to plan, then you'll like, shucks i dont know i feel lost cause the situation is not in my control though i always seem to think of how to control it, not knowing, that its never in my control. Once it is like that, i guess, in so many things, i truly learn how to drive "let Thine will be done" home. Or in other words, to really learn to do it. Only when your resolve is tested, then only can you make it stronger.

Hopefully its alright.

I remember listening to this song on my friend's dad's car when he sends me to sch every morning. Haha. A La Ben's kinda song. Suddenly felt nostalgic listening to this. Haha.


Please Forgive Me
Bryan Adams

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still hold on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on

So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me

This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch

We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough I'm still holdin' on
You're still number one I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights ya know I still do