seriously... i am starting to do things i never did in e past 2 years.. but i am doing it more and more frequently recently... there are alot of things i wanna say.. but i guess im going to keep it to myself for sometime...

i seriously dun feel like doing anithing le.. so many thins to do suddenly tt it is like overkill lah... my spiritual state is really low until cannot low... thus i realli dun feel like doing my resp...

last week i went for 2 leadership camps(or at least so called)... i realized tt i actually hav quite abit of leadership in me... juz tt im a bad role model... but its juz tt i dun want to do it and i rather slack i guess... no its e whole spiritual thing tt declined tt everything has followed... and i dun look a teeny bit like one... cos i look childish still i guess...

u wldnt want to noe what i did last nite at hm u noe during an argument... realli...

if u were looking forward to seeing me tok abt ogl camp im srry but i guess u wun see now... nor can i say i would ever feel like blogging abt it ever...

im juz going to die lah never started studying... die die die... theres definitely more to life than studying(althought im nt in a very gd position to say so) but realli we dun hav to study all e time u noe... im doing e exact opposite though...

why do i like e impossible? i dun noe.... it juz seem so but it is really crazily impossible for an average human and i still do... i think im juz going to forget it cos i never deserve/am worthy of such things...

i juz feel like giving up... give up what u say? everything... everything tt im strving which i can never can reach... everything tt im doing... juz give up....

i need a break...

oh and do u hav to block me even though u dun want to tell me something? i noe u are used to doing so and i am oh so nt observant to notice some things... but it is seriously nt nice to do so ok... dun wan to say dun wan to say lah.. alamak... grr...

tts why i say i wanna give up.. i can still never reach tt lvl too...

i m a crazy super high I now... feeding on mere chatting...

i m oh so in a weird state... i cant even tell what i am anymore...

yea yea... busy busy busy.... grr...

oh crap headache.. arrrggghhhh....

well but maybe ull never noe what kinda state i was... everything juz feel like dun care... dun care lah...