Answers, and tears to a lost friendship

I'm shell shocked i actually teared for a fren. But i guess its just cause losing a close fren is somewhat like a gf/bf. You share (or at least you think you share)  a close r/s, and when its broken, esp in argument, you would be overcome by emotions. Then you want to release all the emotions at 1 go. This fren means alot to me, funny thing is, its a 1 sided thing? Funny to use words like that to describe a friendship. Since i teared, it just shows how much even just the close r/s mean to me. But somehow i feel happy. Im happy this coincides with getting answers from all my other problems. This happen to be the last of it. Im happy that it releases me from the bondage of anger, or whatever else. I actually feel that i am at peace finally now. After this session of tearing, hopefully, i can finally move on with life. Though it wont be easy, as I will see her so often. I would keep feel like talking to her. But maybe after a while, I'll get used to it.

I thank God for the answers He gave me to my questions the past few days. i asked for it and He gave it to me. I asked for the answer to my hearts desire. Listening to all the talk abt sacrifices to play Ultimate, i somehow feel nonchalent- they sacrifice so much for a perishable wreath, but then is it worth it? How abt the unperishable one? For me, knowing that there is an unperishable wreath we should be striving for, it seems foolish even to sacrifice so much for a moment of glory. It seems foolish really. That being said, i think it all the more strengthens my desire to be focused in my goals in ultimate. To not forget the reason im there. To not forget what im striving for. I find it regrettable that i had the opportunity on the livejournal, but i didnt use it. Its a lesson learnt, and i pray that God would open many more opportunites for the work that im doing.

Hopefully, this closes a chapter of all my recent problems. I shant talk abt my other problems here. IT HAS ENDED anyway. Everyone and everything gave me an ans at abt the same time. Through all this, esp today, i realise that, I can only turn to God for my problems, i can only turn to Him, and when i turn to him, he gives peace. Peace that surpasses all understanding.

Im sorry Krist. For causing you to stumble, for making you angry. Just as how you couldnt see things from my shoes, i couldnt see yours. As much as i would love to be your good friend,i guess you dont view it this way,and after what happened, i guess we will never be. I remember how you perked me up when i was down. I stll keep your note in my wallet. Your non stop cheerfulness was a great encouragement to me and your annoyance only serves to brighten the day. But i still have hope, hope in the eternal r/s we will share with Christ. I pray that then, we can all share a close r/s, with everyone else with us for that matter. Oh and last, i pray that one day, you will see the value of  "The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field- Luke 10:2" and "Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here [am] I; send me.-Isa 6:8). I pray that you will be one of the workers of the harvest. I still wish or our friendship will be salvaged.



Isa 9:6 NIV - [6] For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.


Isa 52:7 NIV - [7] How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news, who proclaim peace, who bring good tidings, who proclaim salvation, who say to Zion, "Your God reigns!"

2Cr 13:11 NIV - [11] Finally, brothers, good-by. Aim for perfection, listen to my appeal, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you.

1Cr 14:33 NIV - [33] For God is not a God of disorder but of peace. 

2Ti 2:22-26 NIV - [22] Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart. [23] Don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. [24] And the Lord's servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. [25] Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, [26] and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will.


Rom 15:13 NIV - [13] May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.


Phl 4:7 NIV - [7] And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.